Well it's been a LONG LONG LONG time since I wrote anything on here and today with the weather and the way I'm feeling I needed to write something.

Lots has happened.....I was in a relationship, then I ended it, I've had a few surgeries which always sucks. Along with that I'm still struggling to find a balance with having a Chronic illness and working plus spending time with my family.

I think I've spoken about that "toxic" cycle of emotions that happens when you do suffer from constant pain. For me it goes like this........Happy, Sad, Angry, Blue, Happy, and it's bloody annoying!

The latest thing that's really annoying me is my newest injury.....my right knee. Now I've been on a roll lost 25kgs in the last 6mths, my pains were manageable and then I wake up one weekend and my knee is HUGE and swollen, and very painful. I didn't injure it whatsoever. Cutting a long story short I had to have unexpected surgery on it and I had torn cartilage and have whats called a "micro fracture" where I have 6 tiny holes that were drilled into the joint - ick I know right?

Anyway my surgery happened like 5 weeks ago, got the all clear to go back to work on week 4. All is good up to today - my knee has blown up again and it's fucking sore! Excuse my language but it is - and I am so over it.

*sigh*

It just seems to me that whenever I seem to be going well, something always happens to throw a spanner in the works for me - it just doesn't seem fair.

That's my rant for the day - may you all be well and stay safe

T  xx